by bellace on Mon Apr 21, 2008 9:05 am
im really upset by it all. I really dont want to lose her friendship!! I have been trying to give myself a bit of a break from my "psychic stuff" (for alack of a better term!! lol) as i i kept getting "rest" during my card readings...so i decided to pack everything away for a while, and just ahvent felt ready yet to return to it. I keep meaning to do some meditating...but havent found the time to do it yet.
The message i get is "Don't, please don't" and I assume its from from my friend ( through guides of course) I think she is telling me "dont contact me" All im saying back is "im not intentionally doing anything!!" But i cant be certain that is what her message means as they are the only words im getting.
I get the feeling the this isnt a "forever" situation. I dont feel i was out of line with my concern, and i get the feelign that BOTH our guides dont think so either. But i think she just needs time to see it from my point of veiw and give her mind and body time to rest and heal.
My feelings have been hurt by all this, and there are times i have been angry by it, and i hope this isnt what is coming across to her. Its seriously not what she needs at the moment and i want to give her the space she wants.
I am also wondering if this is maybe a test for me. Not turn this situation around to benefit myself or anything (god i hope this makes sense!!! lol) but yeah, im wondering if this is a sort of test to see how i can go on my own...if i can trust myself while being alone...not relying on my friend for guidance and assistance....and develop my abilities even further
So for the moment, I guess i want it to be a temporary thing. i definelty dont want it to be permanent. but that depends on my friend